STEEL, issac "izzy" lucas

[Izzy Lucas Steel]

I S S A C LUCAS S T E E L !



an empty room, i'm empty too and everything ,

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r e m i n d s m e o f y o u. s o m a n y t h i n g s i s h o u l d n 't h a v e m i s s e d. t h e m o r e t h a t i p u s h,
and the more you resist. it's easy to say it's for the best when you want more while you leave me with less.[/color][/font]

Full Name:

[/color] Issac Lucas Steel.
Nicknames: Izzy (what he goes by), Iz, Isa, Steel.
Age: Sixteen.
Birthdate: June 2nd.
Sexuality: Homosexual.
Gender: Male.
Problem: Other. (personality disorder; also self harms)
Grade: Sophomore.
Clique(s): Music geek, loner.
Classes:

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i know you're fine, but what do i do ?[/i][/color][/size][/font]
i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e, a n d t r y i n g, w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g
like a babe beside him. i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Height:

[/color] 6'.
Weight: 125lbs.
Hair Color: Black, sometimes with highlights.
Eye Color: Brown/hazel.
Notable Features: Star tattoo on right hip, self designed symbol on back of neck, eyebrow piercing, tongue piercing, naval piercing, dermal on each hip. Scars on his thighs from self harm.
Play-By: Bill Kaulitz.
General Description: Standing at six feet even, this rather skinny teen doesn't blend into the background too easily, but that's alright with him. His deep brown eyes are almost constantly seen with a ring of eyeliner around them, never smeared unless he doesn't realize because that drives him nuts. With pale skin and a complexion many would kill for, Izzy is an androgynous type. He's quite often mistaken for a girl, even with his lack of a chest, and sometimes he'll use that to his advantage. The boy is typically seen in darker clothing that hugs his form, or lack thereof. Boots and Converse control the boy's shoe collection and are often chosen to compliment the day's outfit. Sometimes it might seem as though Izzy spent forever picking out just the right thing to wear, but in reality the boy rarely spends more than ten minutes getting ready in the morning, though he's always dressed to impress. He's not against wearing girls' clothing as long as it's not heels, skirts, or dresses. He won't take it that far. Littering the tops and the insides of his thighs are multiple scars in varying lengths, widths, and depths from years of self harm.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and i know you see me, and you're making it ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
l o o k s o e a s y. w h a t c o m e s a n d g o e s, i 'd g o w i t h o u t. i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e b u t w h a t a b o u t
fallout , fallout , fallout, through the fallout. fallout, fallout, through the fallout. well now there's him,[/color][/font]

Likes:

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• Strawberries. They're his favorite fruit and scent. He isn't sure why, but it just is. It's always been that way, really.
  
• Strawberry smoothies. Obviously being made of strawberries, it's going to be near the top of his list, but he quite enjoys smoothies in general with a preference to the strawberry one.
  
• Singing. Not that he ever sings in front of people when he doesn't have to, Izzy's favorite thing to do is to sing. It relaxes him and makes him feel better.
  
• Teddy. Yes, he still has his childhood teddy bear, and he loves the thing to death. To be honest, Iz finds it hard to sleep without the thing.
  
• Smiling. Smiling is his favorite. He enjoys smiling because it goes hand-in-hand with happiness. Who wouldn't like smiling.
  
• Dancing. He doesn't ever dance in front of people, but he does love to dance. He's one of those boys that will play music loudly and dance around his room while cleaning or just when bored.
  
• Mtn. Dew. It's his favorite soft drink and can't make it through the day without having at least one, though his average is two.

Dislikes:

• Being touched. It doesn't matter who the person is, if they touch Isa, he's going to flinch and withdraw in on himself. He doesn't like being touched because touching is bad. It always leads to bad things.
  
• Himself. Though there isn't much explanation, Isa is his own worst enemy. He really dislikes himself. He doesn't think he's good enough in any sense and wants to be better, though he doesn't think it's possible.
  
• Being in front of people. Isa freezes up when put in front of people or asked to speak in the middle of class. He clams up and stutters and can't get his words out. He has a hard enough time speaking on a normal basis, let alone with many eyes on him.
  
• Large crowds. Crowds scare him. There's just too many people in a condensed space and he starts to panic. There's too much of a chance of being hurt and it's just a bad thing. That's why he tends to wait until the halls are clear to walk to any of his classes.
  
• Rejection/criticism. He has a bit of a hypersensitivity to rejection and negative criticism. It's enough to have him all locked up in his room crying for days if allowed. Every word always tends to come across a lot harsher to him than however mean they were intended to be.

Strengths:

• Piano. Though he can't bring himself to play in front of people (not including in groups during class), Izzy is actually really good at the piano, but he doesn't see it. He thinks he's terrible at it. He is his own worst critic, after all.
  
• Singing. It's the same as with the piano. Iz really has a great singing voice with a wide vocal range. However, he doesn't think he has any talent and prefers to sing in his room where no one can here. He could be in the Chamber Choir class, but he hadn't been able to make himself go to the audition and a stuck with mixed choir, where he could fake it.
  
• Writing. Isa has a way with the written word, able to seemingly make the words flow off the page. He can create amazing new worlds or moving poetry and lyrics. His writings are kept secret, though, and panics at the mere thought of anyone else finding his writings, his secret world to escape reality with.

Weaknesses:

• Blueberries. Izzy is highly allergic to blueberries, enough that he'll stop breathing if not treated right away after eating some.
  
• People. He isn't fond of people. They scare and intimidate him, so he prefers to just hide out in his room, never really going out or attempting to make friends, though he would love to have some.
  
• Clumsy. Tall and gangly, the boy isn't the most coordinated. He's been known to trip over his own feet, or absolutely nothing.
  
• Speaking. Isa has a slight stuttering problem, though he can sing and sometimes even speak perfectly. His stutter grows a lot worse when he gets all worked up and flustered.

Fears:

• His father. The man scares him more than he could ever explain. Just thinking about the man is enough to have Izzy wanting to hide away.
  
• Clowns. There's no real explanation for this other than the fact that he is scared of clowns. He always has been but doesn't know why.
  
• The dark. Iz has a nightlight that he must have on during the night because the darkness terrifies him.
  
• Closets. Though it ranges to any really enclosed space, Izzy is scared of closets after having been locked in one for a few days as a punishment. It's something he always fears happening again if he gets in trouble.
  
• Thunderstorms. He tries to hide from them under his blankets, but that doesn't really do anything. The storm is still there, and it always still scares him.

Disorders: Avoidant Personality Disorder.
General Description: When people first meet Issac, they assume he's just quiet and shy, which is the truth. However, what they don't realize is just how deeply it goes. He doesn't hang out with people in his free time and he avoids social situations as much as possible. He has been known to suffer from panic attacks when met with someone new when he was really stressed out. He thinks very lowly of himself and doesn't think he's good enough at or for anything. His view of himself is extremely low, and it's not something that people usually realize. He wants more than anything to have really close friends, to have people that he can trust, but he just can't open himself up for that. He can't even stand to have someone touch him. Who wants to be friends with someone like that? He is a sweetheart, someone who cares deeply for others, but the ability to grow an attachment to someone is so deeply suppressed under his fears and insecurities that it's almost like it's not even there. He can't trust people not to hurt him, either, which is another reason it's difficult for him to try to make friends with anyone. So, alone and wishing for more, Izzy just survives, not sure how he makes it through every day.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and now there's me. the secrets you give ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
a n d t h e s e c r e t s y o u k e e p. a n d n e v e r t h e l e s s, i t 's n e v e r y o u l e t. t h e m o r e t h a t i g i v e
and the less that i get. don't tell me to fight, to fight for you. after this long, i shouldn't have to[/color][/font]

Mother:

[/color] Priscilla Steel, deceased.
Father: Victor Steel.
Siblings: Ryan Steel.
Pets: None.
Other: None.
History: Issac Lucas Steel's birth was, in his father's eyes, a tragedy. Only hours afterward, his mother passed away due to unpredicted complications. It was in that moment that Isaac's life was going to go downhill. Victor, of course, blamed his youngest son for his wife's passing, something that he would never let the boy forget as he got older. Victor was a drunk, and a violent one at that, but never toward Ryan. Ryan was the good kid, the star, the one that Victor repeatedly told Izzy he should be more like. Nothing Iz did was ever good enough for Victor, and Izzy was almost always in trouble, it seemed. Victor broke a glass? Iz didn't clean it up fast enough. The power went out? Izzy was too much of a troublemaker, distracting Victor from the bills that needed paid. The negative comments only built and grew and grew, and Ryan did nothing to stop it. Ryan thought their family was normal, but there was nothing normal about Victor locking Isa in a closet for two days in punishment.

When Izzy returned to school after that with a busted lip and a black eye, his teacher grew more worried about the withdrawn teen, and she spoke with the counselor. Together, they brought Izzy into the office during lunch to try to talk to him. Isa panicked, nearly passing out there in the office due to his inability to breathe. It was then that both believed there was something severely wrong with the young teen. Iz was sent to talk to a specialist, someone who could help Izzy with what they thought was simply a panic disorder, only to find out it was something different and much deeper than that. The authorities were called when Isa softly told the man who talked to him of his father's punishments and temper. The freshman student couldn't tell you what happened to that, but the next thing he knew, he was at St. Helena's to get help while his father was being thrown into jail and his brother was being sent to live with their grandmother across the country.

It didn't bother Iz that he was all alone at the school. That was what he wanted, after all. He didn't need friends, though honestly he really did want some kind of close relationship with someone, he just didn't know how. So, alone and scared of a new place, Iz started out on a new journey, one that was supposedly to help him. Isa wasn't even sure he wanted it to work.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


i know you're fine, but what do i do? i know ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e a n d t r y i n g w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g l i k e a
babe beside him.i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Alias:

[/color] Alice.
Age: 22.
Time Zone: CST.
Other Characters: Ciel Thompson.
Code Words: Naaaaah.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


this template was made by alice. it uses the lyrics
for "fallout" by marianas trench. do not steal,
alter, edit, or use without her permission or she will
send the evil monkey in her closet after you. you have
been warned.[/i][/center]

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