CHRISTIANSEN, cameron jace

[Cameron Jace Christiansen]

C A M E R O N JACE C H R I S T I A N S E N !



an empty room, i'm empty too and everything ,

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r e m i n d s m e o f y o u. s o m a n y t h i n g s i s h o u l d n 't h a v e m i s s e d. t h e m o r e t h a t i p u s h,
and the more you resist. it's easy to say it's for the best when you want more while you leave me with less.[/color][/font]

Full Name:

[/color] cameron jace christiansen
Nicknames: cam, cammy, he'll answer to anything, really.
Age: fifteen
Birthdate: february 14th
Sexuality: homosexual
Gender: male
Problem: eating disorder
Grade: sophomore
Clique(s): loner
Classes:

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i know you're fine, but what do i do ?[/i][/color][/size][/font]
i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e, a n d t r y i n g, w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g
like a babe beside him. i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Height:

[/color] five feet and three inches
Weight: one hundred four pounds, though it fluctuates
Hair Color: blond and brown
Eye Color: blue
Notable Features: pierced ears
Play-By: mikko puttonen
General Description: cam, being small for a teenage boy, likes to dress in a way that helps him blend in with the crowd occasionally and ways that make him pop other times. he mostly wears loose clothing. he has trouble shopping and deciding things, never really able to feel comfortable. sometimes, he wears tights. his blond hair is different from his brother's blue. i occasionally have to wear a little makeup because i have really bad breakouts, but whatever, nobody can really tell. he's awesome. i hate these.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and i know you see me, and you're making it ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
l o o k s o e a s y. w h a t c o m e s a n d g o e s, i 'd g o w i t h o u t. i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e b u t w h a t a b o u t
fallout , fallout , fallout, through the fallout. fallout, fallout, through the fallout. well now there's him,[/color][/font]

Likes:

[/color] boys, the good feeling you get when you weigh yourself at the end of the day and you've lost a few pounds, baggy clothes, hats, tattoos, bingo, and cigarettes
Dislikes: food, spiders, insects of any sort really, fish (the ones that are living), writing, gaining weight, feet
Strengths: good control over himself, the sciences, and he has a lot of endurance
Weaknesses: afraid of many things, low self esteem/self-loathing, obsessed with weight.
Fears: drowning, and spiders, and any other insect or animal that isn't cute and fluffy, fire, people finding out how 'sick' i really am.
Disorders: anorexia nervosa
General Description: "i've been told that i get really excited really easily. i never really noticed, probably because i'm the person. i have a tendency to over react about almost anything. i'm just a dramatic person i suppose, but i'm good at keeping things to myself. i'm really just a mixed up person. i also get really into the things that i'm excited about and i try to hype people up, almost like a walking flier... except not really. i don't know. i just like being excited about things.

despite the fact that i'm always excited i like to keep it to myself. really, the only people that see that loud side of me are my closest friends and relatives. when i'm out in public i'm mostly a quiet kid unless someone is trying to hurt one of the people that i enjoy the most. i can get pretty defensive and mean when someone is being mean or harassing someone that's close to me. aside from that, though, i usually walk with my head at least semi-down. i don't have a lot of self-confidence and i don't really know how to deal with stress, but i'm learning.

i've also noticed i get embarrassed or flustered really easily. because of this, i tend to blush.. a lot. really, any little thing can make me blush. whether it's a small compliment, or a statement. if you're talking to me and i find you attractive, i'm blushing. if i get in trouble or get reprimanded in a group of people, my face is red. that's how i've been my whole life, and as much as i hate it, i kind of like it. maybe that's just me coming to terms with myself.

i'm unsure as to why, but i submit to just about anything people throw at me. if you're making fun of me, i just listen and stare at the ground, soaking it all up. if you're hitting me, i most likely won't hit you back because that's not the kind of person i am. i let people do what they want, even if they're just playing with me or toying with my emotions. i'm practically a doormat, people walk all over me... and i let them.

throughout everything that has ever happened to me, though, i try to stay on the bright side of things. if i stew over the bad things that seem to surround me, i won't get anywhere in life. if i just look to the things and people i love then maybe one day i'll be truly happy."[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and now there's me. the secrets you give ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
a n d t h e s e c r e t s y o u k e e p. a n d n e v e r t h e l e s s, i t 's n e v e r y o u l e t. t h e m o r e t h a t i g i v e
and the less that i get. don't tell me to fight, to fight for you. after this long, i shouldn't have to[/color][/font]

Mother:

[/color] marci michelle christiansen (deceased)
Father: michael jace christiansen
Siblings: chandler shay christiansen
Pets: n/a
Other: n/a
History: i was born five minutes after my older twin brother, chandler. we're pretty close, he's pretty awesome. i don't know what i would do without him, especially after our mom died when we were six. she and my younger sister died when she was giving birth to her, so then i just grew up with my dad. i didn't know it at the time, but he was a pretty big dunk... he still it. at this point in time, he's disappointed and even angry that i play for the "wrong team", and he had started getting violent about it before i was sent here. whatever, i guess it's my own fault for ever coming out.

because of the things that happened with my dad about being gay, i started developing a really low self-esteem, and i suppose i've kind of started hating myself. at this point in time, i started starving myself. every day i'd eat less and exercise more. i hated going a day where i didn't lose at least a pound, i still do. it didn't take my friends long to find out, and they sent me to the hospital where i was forced to gain all of the weight back, but as soon as i was let out, it all happened again. this went on, repeating itself over and over again until my dad finally decided he didn't want to deal with it and sent me away. right now, i weigh more than i have in a really long time, and it's bothering me. i'm working to lose weight again, and only in one week here, i've realized that it's probably going to be hard to achieve.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


i know you're fine, but what do i do? i know ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e a n d t r y i n g w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g l i k e a
babe beside him.i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Alias:

[/color] alyssa
Age: 18
Time Zone: gmt -8
Other Characters: violet
Code Words: STOLEN BY ALICE.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


this template was made by alice. it uses the lyrics
for "fallout" by marianas trench. do not steal,
alter, edit, or use without her permission or she will
send the evil monkey in her closet after you. you have
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