COLLIN, meeka everly

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r e m i n d s m e o f y o u. s o m a n y t h i n g s i s h o u l d n 't h a v e m i s s e d. t h e m o r e t h a t i p u s h,
and the more you resist. it's easy to say it's for the best when you want more while you leave me with less.[/color][/font]

Full Name:

[/color] Meeka Everly Collin
Nicknames: Meeks
Age: sixteen.
Birthdate: May 3rd.
Sexuality: Homosexual. He doesn't like to put a label on his sexuality.
Gender: Male.
Problem: Addictions.
Grade: Junior.
Clique(s): Jock.
Classes:

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i know you're fine, but what do i do ?[/i][/color][/size][/font]
i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e, a n d t r y i n g, w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g
like a babe beside him. i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Height:

[/color] 5'10
Weight: 138 on a good day.
Hair Color: Dark Brown
Eye Color: Green/Hazel, depending on the light.
Notable Features: He has a saying tattooed on both of his lower forearms, a design on the upper half of his left arm, an outline of a wolf on his right shoulder, and two tattoos on his chest. he doesn't have any piercings - yet.
Play-By: Thomas Dekker.
General Description: Meeka can go from looking shabby to clean cut without even putting any effort into it. Depending on his mood, he could look burnt out and lazy one day and high class and clean cut the next. He typically doesn't care enough when it comes to his sense of style. He has a lot of hand me downs from his older siblings, so he takes what he can get. He likes looking nice, but sometimes his laziness or lack of 'nice' clothing kind of limits him in that area. He has a kind of 'homeless chic' about him and he knows how to rock it well enough to get him by. You can take the boy out of the hood, but the hood will always be a part of him.

You can tell just by looking at Meeka that he is in sports. He is more muscle than fat. He works hard to keep himself healthy at in the best of shape. He definitely isn't a preppy boy, but he definitely isn't scene either. He doesn't bother with labeling himself to a certain style.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and i know you see me, and you're making it ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
l o o k s o e a s y. w h a t c o m e s a n d g o e s, i 'd g o w i t h o u t. i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e b u t w h a t a b o u t
fallout , fallout , fallout, through the fallout. fallout, fallout, through the fallout. well now there's him,[/color][/font]

Likes:

[/color] sex, partying, sports, learning, having control, boys, drinking, confidence, art (especially body art), coming across as innocent, attitude, associating with 'rough' people.
Dislikes: being bored, calling people (he would much rather text them), his past, failing, being away from his family, 'richies', getting angry, getting beat up, losing control, hangovers, know it alls.
Strengths: being sly, sports, listening, pick pocketing, charm, keeping secrets, being in control, lightening the mood, being positive, getting revenge, finding his fix, being outgoing, being strong.
Weaknesses: older guys, clean fighting (he has always fought dirty), being spontaneous, drugs/partying (especially cocaine), his past, his family, sitting still (he has to be constantly moving).
Fears: his secret getting out.
losing his control (though in reality, he fights with being in control every day).
something happening to his family and having no way to help them.
Disorders: a mild case of ADD. Addictive personality disorder.
General Description: Meeka tries to come across as organized and disciplined and strong. He tries to come across as laid back and charming, but it's obvious that he's rough around the edges. He is sporty and is quick to smile. He has always had to be the strong one in his family, even though he has always been the first one to give in to peer pressure. He likes to think that he is a fantastic leader, but sometimes he sets himself up for failure. He tries to keep a clear head, but he can't help but get frustrated easily. He isn't quick to judge. Instead, he would rather just not get involved. He is open minded and will try anything once. He is in the closet, though he is quickly attracted to older men. He is emotional and falls fast for people. He sees the best in people that he cares about, even if no one else can see anything good about that person.

He sets his sights high and works hard to reach his goals. There is always an inner struggle going on inside of the head of Meeka Collin. He is smart, tough, brave, and really caring (almost to a fault). He is also very responsible. He has always been the one to 'take care of everything', even if it spread him much too thin. He is selfless and quirky, but his sense of morals are questionable.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and now there's me. the secrets you give ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
a n d t h e s e c r e t s y o u k e e p. a n d n e v e r t h e l e s s, i t 's n e v e r y o u l e t. t h e m o r e t h a t i g i v e
and the less that i get. don't tell me to fight, to fight for you. after this long, i shouldn't have to[/color][/font]

Mother:

[/color] Valerie Collin, 43, unknown.
Father: Lex Collin, 45, unemployed.
Siblings: Destiny - 11, Lexis - 19, Carter - 17, Cameron - 13, Jazmin - 8, Dillon - 3
Pets: N/A
Other: Joey Rodriguez(Lexis' boyfriend of two years)
History: Growing up was rough for me. Well, all of my family, really. You never really know what to expect when it comes to my place. One day could be quiet and calm like a normal family and the next, we could have some insane drama ripple in the 'force'. We all had to grow up pretty fast in that environment. We had to be independent to make sure that we ate every day. It was a kind of free for all home. If we were hungry, we had to find our own food. We had to take care of our own selves. Sure, our dad dropped in now and then to check in on us or take up space, but that was about all he was good for. Lex is a druggy and when he's high, he can be a blast. I've only met my mother a couple of times though. She was always kind of a no-show in my life and that's okay. She never came around looking for money that we didn't have or want to 'crash' at our place. In a way, I think we all just have a lingering scorn for her because she got out. Then again, so did I... kind of. What does that make me? An abandoner?

The three youngest always came first. When it came to food, we always made sure they had something in their belly. I was just kind of everywhere, I guess. I went to school but after that... well, I just did whatever. I had better things to do than sit around in that dirty house, waiting for something dramatic to happen. Lexis was hardly ever home because she worked so much. Carter always found a way to entertain himself and find the best parties, so there was that. He hopped (and still does) from girl to girl so much that it made my head spin. I think it had something to do with mommy issues, but I would never say that to his face without walking away with a busted lip. Carter and I used to be the closest of all the kids, before I got hooked. I mean, the whole family was pretty close knit because when you live like that, all you have is each other, but Carter and I were really close. Maybe it was because we are so alike, or maybe it has something to do with our age. We would break each other down in every way possible and still tolerate each other enough to sleep in the same house. Carter was like cancer, in a way. You kill it in one spot and it just pops up in another.

Summers were when the real magic happened for me. Summers were a time when we were free from the pressure of school. Parties were easy to come across when you lived in the bad part of town and nobody really worried when you didn't come home for a few days. Carter and I always hit the biggest and the best parties. We hit on the hottest girls and smoked things that I'd never even heard of before. Lexis drifted from job to job, but summers were a time when even she had a little more freedom. Us kids were never home, so she had the house to herself most days. She always seemed to need to play mommy though, which was cool, I guess. There was always some poor neglected sibling out there somewhere, needing her shoulder to cry on. By the time winter rolled around, we just kind of had to drift it. I remember a lot of sweatpants and hoodies and sharing blankets at the breakfast table. It was more normal to find someone passed out on our front lawn than it was for everyone in our house to wake up with a smiling face. Our house was like a sit in for drug addicts and drunks. And lets not forget the pregnant chicks that showed up from time to time. I like to think it was a pretty normal life, before I got hooked. We never lived in the same place, but always around the same place, if that makes sense.

After cocaine, my life changed, but not much. I still drifted. I still did my own thing. I still loved my family... I just loved the rush more. It's not a part of my life that I'm really proud of. I hurt a lot of people and crushed a lot of relationships in that time. I would do anything for my fix. Anything. Like I said, I would try anything once. And at that time, if it got me what I needed, I would do it again, even if I didn't like it. I lost my control. I lost my sense of worth. I lost my friends because my only friend was cocaine. I lost myself somewhere along the way too. I'm still kind of trying to find myself, but something tells me that I'll never find who I once was. Lexis and Carter ganged up on me and sent me to rehab more times than I can count, but I don't think I'll ever get over that need. Until you've tried it, you'll never understand the rush of it all. You'll never understand how hard life is without it.

There was a time when I didn't want to live, if I couldn't feel that rush. I know that my siblings were all afraid that I was going to end up killing myself. Eventually they got tired of trying to see me sober and sending me to rehab. I think I'm a little tired of trying to get sober. Maybe that's why they sent me here. Some days are better than others, but I still want out of this fucking place. I don't need help, I just need to be me.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


i know you're fine, but what do i do? i know ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e a n d t r y i n g w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g l i k e a
babe beside him.i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Alias:

[/color] Devin
Age: 22
Time Zone: Eastern
Other Characters: Maxine Moon, Jackson Ridge, Benton West, Riley Shadows
Code Words: I am above this.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


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