RYDER, Milo Jacob

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r e m i n d s m e o f y o u. s o m a n y t h i n g s i s h o u l d n 't h a v e m i s s e d. t h e m o r e t h a t i p u s h,
and the more you resist. it's easy to say it's for the best when you want more while you leave me with less.[/color][/font]

Full Name:

[/color] Milo Jacob Ryder
Nicknames: MJ (Not Michael Jackson or Mary Jane), Mi (My), Miles
Age: 18
Birthdate: July 4th
Sexuality: Gay
Gender: Male
Problem: Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
Grade: Senior
Clique(s): Music Geeks, Nerds
Classes:

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i know you're fine, but what do i do ?[/i][/color][/size][/font]
i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e, a n d t r y i n g, w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g
like a babe beside him. i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Height:

[/color] 5' 8½"
Weight: 150 lbs
Hair Color: Black
Eye Color: Brown
Notable Features: Ears pierced at one time, but now they've closed up. A tattoo of a keyboard on his forearm which he obtained legally from the tattoo parlour on his 18th birthday, thank you very much.
Play-By: Brendon Urie
General Description: Brendon has dark, soulful eyes, with the longest darkest eyelashes you will ever find on a guy. When he was little his older sisters used to tease him about his eyelashes because they were jealous. He has plump lips and heavy, expressive brows. He favours tight fitting jeans that show off his shapely butt. He also has a bit of a thing for dress clothes--- suits and ties and such. He has been known to wear jeans and a dress shirt as well as a dress jacket and tie. He has a broody look about him that completely belies his personality. He does wear eye make-up on occasion, but only because he is a bit obsessive about looking the same every day as far as his face goes. When he was thirteen he got a zit on the very end of his nose and faked having the flu so he wouldn't have to go to school like that. His older sister saw right through him when he was still “sick” the next day, and lent him some concealer. He's been wearing make-up ever since. He used to be pretty muscular because he has always been concerned with his appearance, but now he has more lean muscle than the bulky kind.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and i know you see me, and you're making it ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
l o o k s o e a s y. w h a t c o m e s a n d g o e s, i 'd g o w i t h o u t. i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e b u t w h a t a b o u t
fallout , fallout , fallout, through the fallout. fallout, fallout, through the fallout. well now there's him,[/color][/font]

Likes:

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-Singing (he has a pretty decent singing voice)
-Playing the guitar
-Playing the piano
-Playing the ukulele
-Playing the banjo
-Playing the harmonica
-Playing the drums
-Playing the viola
-Playing the trombone
-Playing the euphonium
-Playing the harpsichord
-Playing the organ
-Playing the marimba
-Playing the bass (stand up and electric)
-Writing poetry
-Hugs
-Massage Trains
-Swimming (he used to play water polo before he came here)
-Acting
-Watching live theatre
-Shakespeare
-Beat Poetry
-Poetry Slam Competitions
-Calligraphy

Dislikes:
-A messy room.
-Having to use a regular pen.
-Not having exactly four of everything.
-Socks that don't match.
-Being unable to sleep because there is always some sort of light in his bedroom--- be it from a street lamp coming through the blinds or from someone's cell phone charger blinking away.
-Feeling like a freak because of his disorder.
-Feeling like everything is covered in germs.
-Food that doesn't show an expiration date.
-When you ask someone for an exact time and they give you an “about” answer.
-Being around too many people at once.

Strengths:
-Creativity
-Intelligence
-Work Ethic
-Kindness
-Openness

Weaknesses:
-Irritability whenever anything is out of place.
-Has trouble focusing if there is anything “wrong”, like the perforated edges of spiral notebook paper being torn in one little chip, or having what is left, after you pull off the perforated edge, left on a table or on the floor. He will fail a test just to get up and throw that tiny bit of paper away.
-He is a bit of a germaphobe. Okay, maybe not a bit. He's completely paranoid about germs and carries around lysol and hand sanitizer everywhere he goes.

Fears:
-Germs
-Failure
-Large crowds

Disorders: OCD, a slight case of ADHD, anxiety, agoraphobia, and germ phobia. Also, one suicide attempt that he would rather forget. He is not actively suicidal.
General Description:Milo is a bit of an overachiever. Before St. Helena's he was in zero period Jazz Band and had Marching Band after school as well, plus he was also in water polo which sometimes cut into the weekend, and on top of that he was taking like six AP's. His parents were proud, but not surprised. In a way, he was just following in the footsteps of his older sisters, so they hadn't expected any less of him. He's a clever and artistic boy with a love of creating things which has lead him to become a skilled musician. He can't draw for the life of him, but he has perfect handwriting and refuses to write with normal pens--- he favours calligraphy pens.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and now there's me. the secrets you give ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
a n d t h e s e c r e t s y o u k e e p. a n d n e v e r t h e l e s s, i t 's n e v e r y o u l e t. t h e m o r e t h a t i g i v e
and the less that i get. don't tell me to fight, to fight for you. after this long, i shouldn't have to[/color][/font]

Mother:

[/color] Amanda Ryder, 50
Father: Jacob Ryder, 56
Siblings:
-Harper Ryder, 24
-Violet Ryder, 23
-Olive Ryder, 20

History: Milo actually had a pretty awesome childhood. His parents were supportive and encouraging. When he was five he liked dressing up in his sisters clothes and his parents just chuckled and took pictures rather than yelling at him or telling him that it was wrong like other parents might have. They always suspected that he might be gay, but never said anything about it, preferring to let him come out when he felt comfortable talking about it.

When he was thirteen he came out to his family, and was shocked when they were... actually excited for him. They were proud of him for being brave enough to come out, and took him out for a big coming out dinner--- they treated it like his birthday really. He thought they were going a bit over-board with the whole “being supportive” thing, but deep inside it really made him feel good. His family was amazing and he loved him.

The sad thing is, his “perfect” family was probably the cause of his disorder.

His sisters were always very competitive with each other, and this rubbed off on Milo. He wound up feeling like he had to out-do them in everything, and they set a pretty high bar. Harper and Violet both graduated valedictorian one after the other, and Olive was given a full ride to Yale when she was only sixteen years old. This put a LOT of pressure on Milo to succeed, and he always felt like the failure of the family even though he was getting straight A's and everything, since he hadn't managed to outdo Olive. He came to really resent Olive, even though he loved her dearly. By his junior year he was a complete nervous wreck. He ended up having a nervous breakdown and missing two weeks of school--- causing all of his grades to drop, missing the concert for Jazz (which automatically gets you kicked out of the class and it is really hard to get in), and ruining his almost perfect attendance (he'd only missed one day) which he'd had since kindergarten.

He went back to school defeated and avoided all of his friends. He felt like a complete and utter failure, and his parents were beyond worried. They took him to a therapist, but he refused to talk for reasons he couldn't even completely explain to himself. So, they got him a new therapist and he did talk to this one, but the results were pitiful. His anxiety had reached a point where he was having up to ten panic attacks a day. He couldn't function at all. His OCD got astronomically worse, and he couldn't even leave a building without pacing through it four times, turning the lights on and off four times with each hand, and then passing in and out of the door four times. His fear of germs got to the point where he'd use a bar of soap and then throw it away. He was using the dryer on a setting that was too hot in order to kill bacteria on his clothes, and wound up ruining most of his clothes. He couldn't eat because everything was full of germs.

In the end he wound up attempting suicide. He took four showers, laid out four razor blades on his bed in a perfect row, and then took one after the other and slit his wrists--- two blades per wrist. His mother had one of those moments of motherly intuition and went up to check on him since he was blasting music in his room to block out the noise, and then she found him there. She was hysterical while he was in the hospital, even though she was told repeatedly that she'd found him on time and that he was going to live. She couldn't stand the idea of her baby hurting so much that he would want to hurt himself... or even kill himself. SHE wound up in therapy, and as a favour to the family he OFFERED to go to St. Helena's so that he wouldn't be putting his family under so much strain. [/justify][/blockquote][/size]


i know you're fine, but what do i do? i know ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e a n d t r y i n g w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g l i k e a
babe beside him.i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Alias:

[/color] Simon
Age: 18
Time Zone: Pacific
Other Characters: Simon Patrick Gallagher, Sophie Marie Martin, Harmony Elizabeth Turner, Doctor John Smith
Code Words: STOLEN[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


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