RYANS, jasper lee

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r e m i n d s m e o f y o u. s o m a n y t h i n g s i s h o u l d n 't h a v e m i s s e d. t h e m o r e t h a t i p u s h,
and the more you resist. it's easy to say it's for the best when you want more while you leave me with less.[/color][/font]

Full Name:

[/color] Jasper Lee Ryans.
Nicknames: Jazz, Lee, Ry.
Age: Eighteen.
Birthdate: August 10th.
Sexuality: Omnisexual.
Gender: Male.
Problem: Eating Disorder.
Grade: Senior.
Clique(s): Music Geek, Mirage.
Classes:

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i know you're fine, but what do i do ?[/i][/color][/size][/font]
i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e, a n d t r y i n g, w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g
like a babe beside him. i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Height:

[/color] 5'9".
Weight: 113lbs.
Hair Color: Brunet.
Eye Color: Brown.
Notable Features: Has a few planned tattoos, but nothing yet.
Play-By: Ryan Ross.
General Description: Jasper's clothing style tends to vary from day to day. Anything from something more dressy to grungy is possible to be seen, it all depends on the day, really. There is one thing that is a constant, though. All his clothes are on the baggy side, something some people can't decide if it is intentional or not. The boy is almost always seen with a smile on his face, and his brunet hair tends to fall right into his eyes, typically with a messy "just got out of bed" style. His skin is a bit on the pale side, almost sickly looking sometimes, though he generally hides that with a bit of makeup. Makeup is also a wonderful tool he uses to hide the dark circles under his eyes. Fairly tall and very thin, the boy sometimes has an almost skeletal look to him. With brittle bones and faint muscle mass, the teen is just as fragile as he looks.
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and i know you see me, and you're making it ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
l o o k s o e a s y. w h a t c o m e s a n d g o e s, i 'd g o w i t h o u t. i k n o w y o u 'r e f i n e b u t w h a t a b o u t
fallout , fallout , fallout, through the fallout. fallout, fallout, through the fallout. well now there's him,[/color][/font]

Likes:

[/color] Playing piano, playing guitar, singing, going to the movies, clothes, makeup, talking with people, spending time with lots of people, smiling, hugs, the dark.
Dislikes: Hugs (people tend to find out just how thin he is that way), mirrors, himself, being alone, his brother, spiders, lunch time, scales, therapy sessions, being monitored, St. Hell.
Strengths: Piano, guitar, singing, writing, drawing, faking a smile, self expression.
Weaknesses: Food, mirrors, scales, bathrooms, sweets, being watched, math.
Fears: People finding out why he's at St. Helen, failure, needles, scales, clowns.
Disorders: Anorexia Nervosa.
General Description: Jasper is one of the most honest people you'll ever meet. It's almost a fault, to be honest. He doesn't care if he comes across as rude or mean in something he says, well... not really. Once he realizes he's said something totally mean or out of line, he'll apologize and genuinely be sorry, but at the same time he'll be glad that he was honest instead of lying. He really is a great guy. He'll tell jokes and laugh with just about everybody, always seen with a smile on his face. Jazz is the type of guy you can depend on to always be there. There's one thing the boy isn't completely honest about, though. That is why he's at St. Helena.

Jazz refuses to admit he has a problem, because he doesn't think he has a problem. He's just trying to be perfect, is that so bad? Apparently so, if he believes what his therapist says. He tells everyone that he's at the school for being obsessive-compulsive. Because of that little lie, nobody makes note of his odd eating habits whenever he does actually eat in front of people. One of his "cute" little quirks according to someone or another. It kills him that he's lying, but he doesn't want people to know what the doctors and therapists think. He doesn't want them to look at him funny, nor does he want the looks of pity that would come from the undoubted conversation about his home life that would come up.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


and now there's me. the secrets you give ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
a n d t h e s e c r e t s y o u k e e p. a n d n e v e r t h e l e s s, i t 's n e v e r y o u l e t. t h e m o r e t h a t i g i v e
and the less that i get. don't tell me to fight, to fight for you. after this long, i shouldn't have to[/color][/font]

Mother:

[/color] Anna Ryans, 42, former model.
Father: Lee Ryans, 45, former football player.
Siblings: Justin Ryans, 22; Rachael Ryans, 13; ----- Ryans, 18 (twin).
Pets: Beagle puppy named Aurora, back at home.
Other: None.
History: Jasper and his twin were born on July Fourth, and they were always a bit scrawnier than Mr. Famous Football Hero would like, unlike their older brother Lee, who was always a big boy. Jazz never took interest in sports or cars when he was little like his brother had. Instead, he'd rather help the cook in the kitchen, or the housekeeper in the garden. Lee never could quite understand it, and often called the kid a "disappointment" even before he'd started kindergarten. Justin had already fallen in love with football when he'd been that age. What was wrong with him? Then, Rachael was born. Daddy's little princess, Mommy's sweet angel.

Jazz spent more time with the nanny and his twin than he did with his parents, they were too busy doing things with his other siblings. Jasper was struggling to keep up with their perfect little family, in their perfect mansion of a home, in their perfect little world. He just felt like an outsider, though, as if he were watching from somewhere else, and he wasn't himself. Jasper isn't even sure when or why it started, his change in eating habits. He thinks it was somewhere around the start of junior high, when he was trying hard to make perfect grades to keep up with Rachael's Little Miss pageant wins and Justin's football glory. All the while, he and his twin slowly started to grow apart.

Nothing was quite good enough to get more than a, "That's good, dear. Have you seen Rachael's curlers?", or a , "Not now, boy. Lee was just telling me about..." Somewhere in there, Jasper just snapped and the need to be perfect became his driving force. His grades and popularity shot up, his smile got brighter, his social life was amazing, and somehow his weight kept dropping. Jazz was only partially aware of his own actions, somehow finding a way to convince himself that there was nothing wrong with what he was doing, nothing at all. Food, after all, was an enemy in his road to perfection.

Of course, his whole world came to a sudden stop the day he passed out in the mall half way through his freshman year of high school. He wouldn't wake up, or so they told him, and he was rushed to the hospital. There, the doctors diagnosed him with anorexia nervosa based on his answers upon awakening, and questions answered by some of his friends and school staff. Of course, his parents were scandalized. How could he do this to them? Didn't he realize this could end up in the papers?

Luckily enough, it didn't, but the damage was already done. Lee and Anna decided that they could not deal with Jasper's "problem", so they looked for the best help available and sent him to St. Helen right in the middle of his freshman year. He was on close watch as the medical staff worked to get his weight up, spent a lot of time going in for an IV and was almost constantly monitored. It was torture. Once he got his weight up a little, though, he wasn't allowed to leave. He was still "sick" because he refused to give up his habits and stuck to them as well as he could.

Jazz was nowhere near being "fixed", not that he thought there was anything to fix, and he realized soon that he would probably be spending the remainder of his high school career there. At least he wasn't too alone after making friends with a few people.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


i know you're fine, but what do i do? i know ,[/i][/color][/size][/font]
y o u 'r e f i n e, b u t w h a t d o i d o? i 'm a w a k e a n d t r y i n g w h i l e y o u 'r e s l e e p i n g l i k e a
babe beside him.i'm on the ledge while you're so god damn polite and composed.[/color][/font]

Alias:

[/color] Alice.
Age: 22.
Time Zone: CST.
Other Characters: Angel, Iz, Ric, and Ci.
Code Words: LOLNAH.[/justify][/blockquote][/size]


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